Hayden Panettiere opens up about the hurtful time in her life that was losing her daughter’s custody.
Hayden Panettiere was the latest guest to be seen on Red Table Talk alongside host Jada Pinkett Smith, Adrienne Banfield Norris, and guest host Kelly Osbourne, where the actress shared that she was not aware that she was losing custody of her daughter Kaya until she was already with her ex, Wladimir Klitschko, in Ukraine. In a clip that was released, Hayden Panettiere can be heard saying that signing the custody papers was the most heartbreaking thing she ever had to do in her life.
Hayden Panettiere said that she was trying to tell herself that if she was not okay if she was not good, then she could not be a good mother to her daughter and explained that she was going through such a hard time that she knew that the most unselfish thing she could do was to choose to work on herself while her daughter was merely three-years-old.
The actress said that it was not fully her decision and she did not even know it was happening until her daughter was already there with her father in Ukraine. Hayden Panettiere had previously spoken about her lowest point of alcohol abuse ahead of her daughter Kaya’s move to Ukraine with her father. At the time, the actress said that even though she never thought of harming her child, at the same time she did not want to spend time with her either and added that even though her then-husband, Wladimir Klitschko, did not want to be around, she did not want to be around her. Hayden Panettiere and Wladimir Klitschko split up in 2018.
Adrienne Banfield Norris said to Hayden Panettiere that she thought that agreeing to sign off the custody of her daughter to her father was the best decision for her daughter, to which Hayden Panettiere said that it was not a discussion and explained that if her former partner and father of Kaya had come to her and said that he thought, because of where she was at the time and the struggles that she was having, it would be good for Kaya to be over there with him for a while, which Hayden said that she would've probably had enough of a conversation, she would've probably had said okay that makes sense, she gets it, she will come there to visit and stuff like that.
Hayden explained that giving up custody of her daughter was one of the most devastating things she had ever experienced and added that it was unpleasant because of the way it was handled. She said that she was going to go work on herself, she was going to get better, and when she would have got better, things would change and her daughter could come to her and she could have her time with her but that did not happen. But the actress added that the best thing for her daughter was to make sure that she was okay, take care of herself, and make sure that she could be a good mom to her. And sometimes that means letting go.
During the conversation Hayden also spoke about how after giving birth to Kaya, she experienced postpartum depression and when asked that if her former partner was able to understand what she was going through, the actress said that he had a very different mentality than her. Hayden added that she respects him for being such a driven human being, very positive but one can not forget that he did not have sisters so he was not really able to understand her and thought that she was doing it herself and believed at the time that she could snap out of the postpartum depression.
Hayden Panettiere added that she did not know how to ask for help which is why she turned to alcohol as she had seen in her family. Hayden mentioned in the interview that she was between the ages of 15 and 16 when she received "happy pills" from someone she trusted with her career. She remembered that when a member of her team approached her at a red carpet event, she was feeling low. She wasn't aware that they were "happy pills" or even drugs because they were given to her and they said they would give her energy. The actress now thinks the "happy pill" was a prescription stimulant "akin to an Adderall," but she insists a team member imported the substance from Mexico.
But it did give her that little bit of energy, and she didn't feel like she was high and out of control, but she did feel pleased and like she was looking forward to having interviews, Hayden said, adding that she trusted them even though she should have thought it was questionable.